Jan 2020

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamu'alaikum Wr. Wb. 

Good Morning..  

It's my first time to be here in 2020. 

Maybe I can say "Thank you and Good-Bye 2019 and Welcome in 2020" 

:)

It was one of the hardest time at the end of 2019. 

I have two heroes in my life. They are my Mother and my Father. Last year I must say Good-Bye to one of my heroes, my Father. I called him "papa". 

Papa left all of us after 18 days of his birthday. We never thought or predicted this. I never thought I could lose my father so soon before my marriage day comes. 

Besides the hardest thing, there were several things that happened in 2019. I could visit the new places with my cousin and had a long trip with my family. It can be said that it was the first journey, the longest trip by a car with my family. 

And actually, we wished to have another long trip like this again one day, but papa has left us first, so we can't do it anymore with papa. 

There are many memories that papa left for me. 

On the last day of papa with us. Usually, papa would drop me to my work every time when he could do it. That morning papa couldn't drop me. I would go to work and as usual, I kissed his right hand and after that papa said "I'm sorry" . I thought papa said like that due to can't drop me to my work. Then I said "it's ok, pah" 

I never thought that it was my last conversation with my father, a very short conversation. My last time to kiss his right hand and the last time I heard his voice. 

I still miss my father badly many times.

I can't talk much in this part, although seems there are many things in my mind to be shared, it's not easy to make them get out of my mind.

But I believe that God will give the best one to His ummat, insya Allah to me and my family too. So Insya Allah what had happened with my father and my family at the end of last year was the best one, insya Allah.. 

I got more knowledge from my experiences last year. And those will be unforgettable moments in my life which will be always in my memories.

There are things that we cannot control. We only can make the plans without knowing it will happen or will be changed with the different ones in the future.

I'm very sorry for all of my mistakes, pah..  Please forgive me.. 

I wish to see you in Jannah of Allah S.W.T. and we gather again with mama, and all of our family members.. insya Allah..  aamiin yaa Rabbal'alamin..

Wassalamu'alaikum Wr. Wb.

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